1999

U meta hsibna li l-weekend kien ghadda, tfaqqa' balla u jerga' kollox iqum fuq riglejh.

is-sitta ta' filghaxija u bghattli nicky! al popeye's village ahna hi

il-privilegg ghal hrug movimentat il-hadd filghaxija, issoltu, inhalluh ghas-sajf biss. Jidher qisu ghandu x'jaqsam mar ritmu li konna qed naqbdu dan lahhar fejn rega gie l-feeling tar rebbiegha gdida.

u man-nicky biex tghaxxaqha!
kien ilna zmien twil ma nohorgu jien u hu biss. B'memorji imdendlin ma kullimkien ma dak is-sajf tan '99, anke jekk b'hafna mil band members ta' dak iz-zmien illum assenti.

Bhal xi haga li tkun amiltha legenda f'mohhok, memorja, jew feeling antik, imbghad tigik it-tieqa biex terga taqbez lura u thoss u tara dak kollu li jkun gara dak iz-zmien. Izda fl-istess hin xi haga gdida.

daqqew nahseb xi ruby u roberta, u armani ovvjament. Sound kien tajjeb u anke l-music, jigifieri cheese mill-inqas u kull dj b'sound differenti ghalih. Kien hemm vibe tat-ticrit il-hluq, bi ftit nies mil arkivji li ltqajt mahhom, u xi erba min nies godda. Events bhal dan jergghu jixghelu l-fjamma go fijja u nkun irrid iktar.

Imbghad ghalaqna s-serata, bl-afterhours id-dar! nikkwota: 'kemm taf tkun sabiha l-hajja hux?'

meta hsibt li l-garra konna se mmisulha l-qiegh, regghet se tibda zzid fil pressa

Kollox ghal raguni


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i buy it n i'm in love

qed nghidu illum kellna fejn nibnu harem shih, izda ma jistax ikun li t-tifla ta' hajtek issibha fejn skip fis-seba ta' filghodu l'hadd meta jkun ghadu kemm beda jbexbex. kellha l-boyish looks kolla li jogghbu lili, kollox ippustjat pulit u zghir, jeans min fuq s isfel, u bil pass imqit: naf fejn sejra, ghandi x namel, izda mhux mghaggla hafna.

jekk nergghu inqisu l parameters kolla, nghidulha: unreal. u jien ikolli nirrassenja ruhi b'dal mod izda nghixu min fuq s'isfel dal hin. being 'in love', jekk ingibu hamsin, itihomlna xi 3.75. illejla wahda biss kienet. jigifieri money wise ghal dak il-feeling li certa nies qatt mhu se jiltaqghu mieghu f'hajjithom, hu quite quite worth it.

illejla kienu hemm kolla kemm huma, deb, ruth ,ana, l armpit girl u xi tnejn ohra tal givin me the eye u hekk.

nergghu ghal dawk l affarijiet li newwili noel, sonya llum derhet tispikka iktar mis soltu. kien hemm lisa, l-grazz u l-bella kumpanijja kolla. izda sonya kienet immarkata bil-highlighter. mhux bizzejjed li jkollok d right person at the right place; irid ikun the right time ukoll.

u nahseb illum mnalla qlibna s-siegha u jien fettillli nitlaq l hemm minghajr hafna hugs u kisses u goodbyes.


ixtrulu gelu tal-angli ha jifga fih!


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I'm just a heartbeat in the river
dragged across stream by the tide
hot breeze blinding my intentions
and its still half way the nite

My spine tingles for the shadows
my feet follow all the light
her hair playing on my eyelids
there's no such thing as wrong or right

i'm a ripple grazing her soft skin
her eyes burn holes on my thighs
there's a brick in the middle
and nowhere to do it right

its a yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
and the vultures close in to kill
but shores of all desire
i cant find an ounce of will

then kaleidoscope speeds through my veins
and my room is like the same
yesterday grey and morrow yellow
while i spill words and all my pain

Thats very good!

u l good friday qeda aw, qed nghixa jien.

iktar bhala funny friday, milli good. meta ghadna nassumu li l-istess affarijiet li kien lussu elf sena ilu, ghadhom lussu issa. Meta fi- fatt l-affarijiet inqalbu totalment u l-hut sar iktar gholi mil laham, izda xorta il-laham irridu nsumuh.

f'dil gurnata dejjem ikun hemm dak ic-certu excitement, ta x'se titmaghna ommi. jew bebbux, jew xi ikla gbejniet tal-bzar qaqocc u affarijiet min dawn. insomma dejjem ikollna festa tistenniena. Ovvjament minghajr ma ndahhlu laham fiha, ghax illlum, ma jiswiex.

Ikolli nieqaf ftit min hidmieti ha nkellem lil mr brownstone u nkompli fuq xoghli.

rega qam is-sugget tan-nihilizmu u l-istojcizmu. meta semplicement kanzunetta ta' xi boy band tal-80's ukoll kellna ntuha gix verzjoni distanti min xulxin. Is suggettivita tispikka meta ddawwar kollox biex jaqbel mas sitwazzjoni li tkun fiha int.

min aw hareg punt iehor ukoll. fejn trid tgharbel u tqis kull kelma li titlissen, ghaliex jista jkun hemm min jigi influwenzat bi statement li jien ma nkunx tajt toqol bizzejjed fih, u minnu ssir ligi gdida.


Igbidlu s-siggu min tahtu ha naraw il-harsa ta fuq wiccu


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s.e.x. and plenty

nohduha fil pulmuni mil-arja ta madwarna: jekk naraw xi haga tibda hekk, naqrawha zgur, jien se nipprova namilha boring kemm jista jkun.

illum kont morning xoghol u wara kellna xi meeting. l-istess wiehed li ghamilna gimgha ilu, u l-gimgha ta qabel, u ohra x-xahar li ghadda. peress li ma setghu isibu 'l hadd biex jihu l minuti, iddecidew li juzaw il-punti tal-gimgha ta' qabel. u l-gimgha ta' qabel kieneu ghamlu l-istess.

arfer carouana hu l-aqwa dj
ghal min jahdem bix-xift u jkun ghadu diehel min ta' bil-lejl. taf kif ikun sebah u inti ghad trid tihu n-nghasa tieghek? u anke jekk hu mod iehor, bi kliemu jipprova jikkonvincina li ghandu i.q. jitkaxkar mal art.

jien li kelli nisimghu imbghad wara kien se jkollna l-meeting, beda gej fuqi helu helu, dak il-velu tan-nghas li lili tant jahjini.

isse murt s ghand fikkiw l mikkanik u ghandi nuhudieliw nwur il hamejs li gej.


Yeah I keep many females Longing for a chance to win my heart With sex and pienty
- culture beat '93

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Il-pinzell: reloaded

Tmiem il gimgha kompla jirrombla, u llejla morna naraw lil de niro jipprova jikkonvinci lilu nnifsu li ghandu spectrum varjat ta karattri li jista jahdem. Insejt x jismu l film, qabadni qtugh ta laham f halqi daqs kemm ttewwibt.

Issa, incident zghir, li forsi f vers stajt niktbu, imma se jkolli bzonn nigbed l ispag biex ikun hemm iktar koerenza fil linji.

* Il paqqa tieghi m ghadiex fl istat li kienet fih fin 1987, tahraq hafna zejt, tbati hafna, u wara kollox, trid taqdini. Meta nistartjha ikun l iktar hin iebes ghaliha, ic choke migbud, irrid noqod immelles id dashboard, u hi titfa xi sparatura xi kultant, back firing tal magna jekk niftakar sew.

* il hafna mcgyvers, magnum pi's u xi naqra starsky n hutch kollha hallew marka zghira fuqi, u ghandi id-difett/don/drawwa li fejn ikun hemm kisra ma nnaqqasx gas u noqod nimrah fit traction mal-kantunieri, sakemm ma jkunx qed ihossni xi ftit avventuruz u nafsilha naqra iktar il gas.

Voldieri gej lura min dal film li mort nara. kelli l karozza hal qormi. Bdejt il-process ta kull darba li nistartja l pony u jkunli kiesah.

niezel 'il fejn il pinzell xi xahar ilu kien hassu keanu reeves f matrix, u hemm kienu ghamlu xi gimgha bi triq maghluqa u l pulizja, imma issa ilu naqra.

naqbad ir-roundabout u nafsilha farka zghira l gas, u aw il pony tfaqqa wahda min tahha fis skiet tal lejl. Mat tifqiha nilmah gix pulizija li kienu fejn it traffic island, jinhasdu, u ttnejn li huma idejhom jaqghu ghal ma genbejhom biex jisiltu l arma.


ghal mument ckejken, il-hin kien waqaf.


oo~oo


Kolla se jkollna gimgha mil isbah ahna hi!


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Iktar mil istess please

le hey, jien drajt nahdem is sibt, u qisu stramba kemm kemm li llum festa. (hi hi gonzi!).

il bierah kien qisni florence nightingale indewwi l morda. Imma xorta tajba kienet ta! Dan qed nghidu li kien hemm xi 40 % tal grupp kellom bzonn xi tip ta kura jew ghajnuna ohra, and, b sorpriza kbira, mhux kolla kienu konsegwenza ta xorb jew sustanzi llecti ohra!

lil clamaraman bqajna ma rajniehx, talabna Lm7 liri hey! ...veru li spiss innizlu l qalziet u nbaxxu biex nircevuh fil warrani, izda li noqodu ndahhlu l apparat ahna wkoll, naqra wisq.

Ghamilna rronda tas soltu, xejjirna lil hafna bouncers u nies jitlajjaw mat triq. Kienet sitwazzjoni naqra skomda. Il gentleman tony qghad johrog barra min triqtu biex imur ghas saab f tarf id dinja, u jiccelebra l farewell tahha, imbghad hi toqod tiddendel ma jdejja. Kien ili daqsxejn ma naghmilha, li nispicca fil kamra l baxxa tan nisa tal alley, bil qeda fuq tifla. Imma kollox izid mat tghoma hux?

Il jack danny rega amilieli, u spiccajt inqalleb fiz zghar tal kartiera forsi naqqad l ahhar wiehed.

jien nahseb ghadni qas gejt f tieghi ghax qed inhawwad lili nnifsi. Bdejna 5, telqu 2, regghu gew, u telaq iehor. Spiccajt marsaxlokk fl ahhar, u jekk nikkunsidraw li dar t'ommi fejn noqod, qeda l imgarr, qisu hemm gibda hux? Imma kerha wisq hej gej lura bix xemx tisreg faccata, u kemm harget xemx fit tmienja ta filodu!

Tbahbahlu wiccu bil coolwater (tm) u xorta jibqa jinten pesti

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Tal-giri! rega ghamilha!

ooo kemm qed itina granet sbieh jahasra!

jinfethu hafna options bhal daz zmien, l estrogen ta nisa xjuh fuq ix xol qed ifur, ihammruli wicci bid doppju sens tahhom, tara iktar tbissim u kulhadd irid imiss it tirma. u jien itini li nahrab lejn l gnejna nigri fuq l gholjiet halli nzomm l appuntament ta kull sena.

kif kienet ezatt ? nigri fil widien u naqbez il hitan tas sejjieh !

dejjem qisu kellha certa magic dil frazi ghalija, u ergajna.

issa nqala clamarus clamaran! ahna l aqwa li nkunu f post mudlam iteptep, riha t gharaq u muzika gholja. u jerga... peress li gie kollox fil bnazzi, kollox mil lum ghal ghada, jerga iktar ilellex!

Spiccajt hdimt gix granet biss ta bil lejn dil gimgha, u biex tghaxxaq, ghaqqadna grupp gustus biex namlu harga l gimgha fil ghaxija!

Hallih jigri fuq il haxix niedi! ha jizloq u jiblahha ghal wiccu !

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nahseb din hi ir-rebbiegha l-gdida!

ghaddew qisu erbat ijiem issa, is-shab qisu kkalma naqra u kulhadd jilghaq il griehi b lemhiet jimirhu lejn in naha l ohra. L insomnia qisha battiet naqra wara ghawdex, u lmuscles regghu intrehew. Anke jekk issa il goals djiequ hafna, xorta qisu hemm sens ta sodisfazzjon.

qomt f nofsinar, mhux soltu, ghal meta nkun ta bil lejn. u fettilli hrigt. provajt insib id data ezatta, imma nahseb kien l ahhar ta novembru, meta hsilt lahhar darba l pony. Dawk jigu kwaghzi erba xhur hux?

Tajjeb ukoll, qisu l ottimizmu gie f mument li xejn ma kien mistenni. Imma kien ilu ma jigi ecitament hekk, ghal zmien ir rebbiegha, min meta kont tkellimt ma halq iz ziemel xi hames snin ilu. Issa jonqosni biss nirranga ftit bil qasab halli jkolna xi tip ta pedament ghas sajf. il kumpaniji kolla li kienu qed jiguni f mohhi, kienu kolla femminili, phu.

sabbatlu wiccu mal perspex u hallieh imliegheq tahta

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il Papa, il duce u l farawni

X kien jamel machiavelli kieku ?

u l harga sal gzira oht taghna, giet u marret.

Ghawdex dejjem jista joffri affarijiet helwin, u inqas helwin.

Jien minalijja kellha tkun tieqa biex minnha nixxabtu u ninzlu nghoxew fl ghelieqi t isfel, fejn il hbiberiji jkomplu jikbru u nghixu wied differenti min tax-xol. imma meta kollox ikun bazat fuq 'spontanjeta' differenti min ta xulxin, ikun hemm il hamrija fertili biex tinbet is sikrana.

Kien hemm xi ankri li ghenew, u forsi minajrhom kont nghereq. Imma issa li qied max xatt lura malta, nahseb xorta nista nghid li kienet tajba.

Il politika tal konoxxenzi dejjem kienet xi haga li taffaxxinani, imma bhal lord of the rings, meta mbghad tiggebbed fuq tlett sensieli jew iktar, nibda nahrabha u nitfa kollox fis senduq ta wara l kamra tal kelb, biex noqod naqraha xi jum iehor.

kienet gabra helwa ta nies b saghtra ta ghanijiet differenti. Xi qalb migrufa, xi nirien mitfijjin, ohrajn bil hatab hdejhom. Jekk xejn, kienet qisha gurnata min dawk li ma jkollix xi jzommli l attenzjoni, u narma ngharrex fid drive:/c u nitfa kollox fil folder tieghu, kollox f postu.

Imma jhossni ghajjien u nispera li ma jkollix ghalfejn namel wahda bhal din fil gimghat li gejjin.

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ssibt filghaxija jigifieri il hadd filghodu

xhin dhalt mal ewwel mort ghalih, did darba kont hsibtlu mis sibt fil ghaxija. Ghedt u ijja, issa namel nofsu, imbghad inkomplih matul il gurnata xhin inqum.

ftakart li kelli noqod babysitter. kien xi kugin minsi, jew xi tifel ta xi habib ta missieri jew xi tip ta konoxxenza ohra li kelli ngib ruhi tajba mieghu. Kellu xi 29 mid dera, kien irrefera ghal 'inpejpu' u f hin minnhom stinka hafna biex idahhal il 'munchies'. Imma la kien gej min fejn l kangaroos: kelli noqod babysitter.

qomt, u grejt ghal pakket imma dad dimonju ma stajt insibu mkien. veru nofs, u jekk kelli naraha min naha l ohra, qisha kienet tberika ta dun guzepp; ma sibtux? noqod minajru!


imma ma stajtx innizilha li x aktarx dal pakkett gustuz kien qed jidhaqli min xi metru l boghod u ma stajtx insibu.

Dak gie, kwazi nsejt dwar il pakkett, u rega telaq. Hlieli ofstanar imma 'issa naraw'

x motto isbah ?

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f elieqi sofor ta haxix twil
id-dmugh igelben u jien mitluf

ir rih jonfoh min fuqi ghal qalb it twil
u jien nigri bla direzzjoni nibqa nhuf

il qasab jizfen hdejja u jien inpassi fih
jien nitlob ghal hniena
izda hu ma jaranix

id dahqa tieghek nisma
gejja min qalb l ghollieq
nipprova nersaq lejk
izda rrih ma jridnix

l eku tighek nisma
jidwi min qalb is sigar gej
u rih jibqa jinkini
u jghidli inti mhux hemm

demaghti jhallu gbini
u jintilfu go dar rih
huma jsibu lehnek
izda jien nibqa nixtieq

nerga nisma ddahqa tieghek
dahqa ferh bajdanija
in niket tieghi idallamni
u l ghollieq inhossu fijja

id dmugh tieghi iferra l biki
u tigi l kisra tal ilfieq
rasi ghejja, titbaxxili
u jkolli nserrah mal ghollieq

naqa nitgerbeb u nkompli nsejjah
id dmugh issa madwari far
xtaqtek tigi issabbarni
izda dirajk ihaddnuni bqajt ma rajtx